Saturday was another long day at work.
Sunday I spent relaxing and catching up. My sister and I went to pick up a juicer from a friend, stopped at H&M, and derby supply. I found some cute clothes at H&M that I bought even though they are out of my comfort zone. That's the point of trying to be more feminine right? A little effort is good.
After getting home from our little day out shopping I started looking up houses for sale. I thought this would be motivating since I took my sister to look at the part of town I wanted to live in. But all I felt was out of touch. I've been really good at staying positive ever since I moved home and even before then. What I found out is that what I want is still really far away. I put myself in a funk thinking about my debt free goal. If I want to pay everything off by June like I planned, I would need to pay close to 1500 a month. I don't even make that. I push close to 1200 if I have a steady week but lately that hasn't even been happening. Right now I feel like I'm just making my bills and that's it.
After talking to Earl and him telling me I can do it like the supportive friend he is, I sat down and evaluated where I am right now. I have about 8500 in the current bills I'm trying to pay off. One of my loans only has one payment left. That is an additional 85 I can throw on another bill. My 2 credit cards are still pretty close to maxed out. However, one of them is only 600 and that's an easy task. I already have half that in my account. I could pay that off and cut it up easily enough. That adds 100 to my other credit card and my car loan.
I have already planned to put my tax return into my credit card after I buy my car new tires. I'm hoping to get the chance to put at least 600 on my credit card. But I have also been considering egg donation. This program gives you 5000 for your first cycle in the program. That alone cuts out half of what I'm trying to get rid of. A lot of people have been asking me if I was worried. It has been known to cause infertility in the donor. But overall, I don't only see it as an opportunity to make a little quick cash, I see it as an opportunity to give a couple the chance to have a child that they desperately want. I'm giving someone the chance to have a baby because they most likely can't. To me that is an ultimate good deed. Even if I come out broken, at least I made someone's dream come true. Plus there are plenty of children out there living in foster and adoption homes that deserve to be loved too.
I'm trying to be bigger than myself and my surroundings.
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