The Time Has Come

I think I need to get myself down to one job or at least quit my practice for now. I'm unhappy. I hate having to drive to Tempe for one appointment that barely puts anything in my pocket. I'd rather pick up more shifts in a restaurant or have my second job be in a restaurant. Massage isn't good right now. Even if I have a day with 2 appointments I won't make more than 30 dollars. That's 4 hours of my time and includes the 20 minute drive to and from. At this point it's not worth it. Plus, I feel like I neglect everything else while at work. For example, I haven't completed a goal in a few months, I haven't spent any time blogging, I haven't had the energy to work out, overall the amount of hours I'm working just make me want to spend hours in bed. I'm exhausted and I need to take care of myself. It's that simple.

March: Get Fit!

I'm putting a lot of spunk into this post because I'm serious. I need to take more time out of my day that I spend watching tv and use it wisely. I need to run, jump, hike, bike, swim, skate, and play as much as possible. My endurance is low and my stability could be better. I need to work on leg and core strength the most. I do plan on keeping my upper body strong as well. I want to be a well oiled machine, a force to be reckoned with, a all around strong athlete. In order to do this I really need to crack down on my eating habits and the amount of time I spend being lazy. I have a gym membership I have never used. At this point I've paid over 100 dollars into absolutely nothing. So this is how it's going to happen;

1. Skate 3 practices a week (Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday).
2. Run 5 miles a week.
3. Ride once a week.
4. Hike once every other week (at least).
5. Cross fit 6 days a week (lunges, squats, up downs, push ups, dips, jump rope, yoga, ectetra).

1. Less dairy and meat
2. No fast food or soda
3. Juice at least once a day
4. More protein and fiber

I'll update with my weight and measurements as soon as I can so that I can keep track of weight loss and muscle gain. I'm trying to turn this into a life style change instead of a diet. I know I'm happier when I'm active. I used to skate 6 days a week and I loved it. I'd like to get back to that at some point. Or at least the happiness I felt during that time. I really hope I can keep up with this change. It's too important to not try.

Goal update: February

So as you've read in previous posts I've been bad. I didn't complete my goal what so ever. I let myself go and cheated way too much. Overall I've realized I need to have more self control and more self worth. I've always battled with my weight. In high school I was skinny, maybe 115 to 120. After high school I shot up to 145 to 150. I can't say whether I've been over that weight or not because I try not to have a scale but it is entirely possible. In high school I suffered from anorexia. Fortunately enough I came to my senses and grew up a little bit. After high school I was told I needed to be girly or no one would ever like me. I was told I needed to lose weight because I was getting heavy. It hurts to think about the past when I was constantly brought down by the people I surrounded myself with. I have a hard time taking compliments because of this. I won't believe you if you tell my I look nice or cute or whatever you have it. I just won't. I am trying to work on this though. I'm trying very hard, but I find that I am my own worst enemy.

I've failed

February all together. I couldn't keep up with my photo a day or my diet alternatives. This month has been insane. I've been working, skating, attending meetings, working fundraisers, playing bouts, hung out with my brother while he was in town, got tattooed, ate a lot of shitty food, saw the woman in black, watched game of thrones, put my two weeks in a boulders, started my training at pita jungle, got my hair colored, among other things so I've been a very busy bee. However after the next week or two I'll be on an entirely different schedule and I'm hoping to rebuild the life I once had. With the new job the hours won't be as long and hopefully the money will be better.

In March I plan on holding myself to a higher standard so hopefully I don't fail at holding myself accountable.

I know I've been spotty

on my posting lately. I've just been entirely too busy with fundraisers, work, family in town, bouts, and what not. I promise I'll utilize this week off to catch up.

Photo a day: February 8

Currently my favorite pair of shoes. Too cute!

Photo a day: February 7

Hanging in there.