The Time Has Come

I think I need to get myself down to one job or at least quit my practice for now. I'm unhappy. I hate having to drive to Tempe for one appointment that barely puts anything in my pocket. I'd rather pick up more shifts in a restaurant or have my second job be in a restaurant. Massage isn't good right now. Even if I have a day with 2 appointments I won't make more than 30 dollars. That's 4 hours of my time and includes the 20 minute drive to and from. At this point it's not worth it. Plus, I feel like I neglect everything else while at work. For example, I haven't completed a goal in a few months, I haven't spent any time blogging, I haven't had the energy to work out, overall the amount of hours I'm working just make me want to spend hours in bed. I'm exhausted and I need to take care of myself. It's that simple.

March: Get Fit!

I'm putting a lot of spunk into this post because I'm serious. I need to take more time out of my day that I spend watching tv and use it wisely. I need to run, jump, hike, bike, swim, skate, and play as much as possible. My endurance is low and my stability could be better. I need to work on leg and core strength the most. I do plan on keeping my upper body strong as well. I want to be a well oiled machine, a force to be reckoned with, a all around strong athlete. In order to do this I really need to crack down on my eating habits and the amount of time I spend being lazy. I have a gym membership I have never used. At this point I've paid over 100 dollars into absolutely nothing. So this is how it's going to happen;

1. Skate 3 practices a week (Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday).
2. Run 5 miles a week.
3. Ride once a week.
4. Hike once every other week (at least).
5. Cross fit 6 days a week (lunges, squats, up downs, push ups, dips, jump rope, yoga, ectetra).

1. Less dairy and meat
2. No fast food or soda
3. Juice at least once a day
4. More protein and fiber

I'll update with my weight and measurements as soon as I can so that I can keep track of weight loss and muscle gain. I'm trying to turn this into a life style change instead of a diet. I know I'm happier when I'm active. I used to skate 6 days a week and I loved it. I'd like to get back to that at some point. Or at least the happiness I felt during that time. I really hope I can keep up with this change. It's too important to not try.

Goal update: February

So as you've read in previous posts I've been bad. I didn't complete my goal what so ever. I let myself go and cheated way too much. Overall I've realized I need to have more self control and more self worth. I've always battled with my weight. In high school I was skinny, maybe 115 to 120. After high school I shot up to 145 to 150. I can't say whether I've been over that weight or not because I try not to have a scale but it is entirely possible. In high school I suffered from anorexia. Fortunately enough I came to my senses and grew up a little bit. After high school I was told I needed to be girly or no one would ever like me. I was told I needed to lose weight because I was getting heavy. It hurts to think about the past when I was constantly brought down by the people I surrounded myself with. I have a hard time taking compliments because of this. I won't believe you if you tell my I look nice or cute or whatever you have it. I just won't. I am trying to work on this though. I'm trying very hard, but I find that I am my own worst enemy.