Goal update: February

So as you've read in previous posts I've been bad. I didn't complete my goal what so ever. I let myself go and cheated way too much. Overall I've realized I need to have more self control and more self worth. I've always battled with my weight. In high school I was skinny, maybe 115 to 120. After high school I shot up to 145 to 150. I can't say whether I've been over that weight or not because I try not to have a scale but it is entirely possible. In high school I suffered from anorexia. Fortunately enough I came to my senses and grew up a little bit. After high school I was told I needed to be girly or no one would ever like me. I was told I needed to lose weight because I was getting heavy. It hurts to think about the past when I was constantly brought down by the people I surrounded myself with. I have a hard time taking compliments because of this. I won't believe you if you tell my I look nice or cute or whatever you have it. I just won't. I am trying to work on this though. I'm trying very hard, but I find that I am my own worst enemy.